ojala se diera cuenta q si se devolviera estaria mejor y tendria su glow up y ya solo seria su desarrollo de personaje al igual q el el mio pq definitivamente no valgo tanto la pena pa este sufrimiento

a veces siento q no siento nada y solo siento furia inside me y ya

cada vez siento q me parezco mas a mi ex jajaj y no entiendo porque, que mamera, si q soy una basuraaa jsjs a veces tengo ganas de quedarme putamente sola pa q nadie tenga q aguantarme mi hostilidad e insensibilidad, no se pq me volví así

total siempre hay buenas chikas por ahi q serian mejor con el q yo

ojala se de cuenta un día q no nerece q lo traten como lo trato yo y me termine y tenga su glow up con otra chika mejor y yo arregle mi mierda y ya(o no lo haga nunca y me quede sola sin dañar anadie)

also i dont wanna speak about this with my bf because i know he will lie to me and tell me that im not fat and all that bs i dont believe

I was excited fornlooking cute today since i have a presentation but this morning i tried to wesr the outfit that i wasn planning and ut looked like shit, i feel like shit also

ihate the way i look when im not trying abyrhing, looks like i have a fat instinct or something

Ive been eating like a cow and ut shows, im thinking that i dont even wanna look muscular, i just wanna be skinny): im tired notnevennmy clothes fitnme anymore

i miss the way i looked when i was at the peak of my eating disorder

i will try to trigger myself into it but working out at the gym and eating more proteín

Ive been thinking lot of stuff also

i love being in love and i love my bf but he has been puttin me lazy into my appearance, i kinda hate that he likes me at all appareances, like im getting like a fat ugly bitch and he even like me, i dont wanna get ugly untill he doesnt

ihate this about myself, once i find masculine validation i forget about staying the way i look

i also hate that he offers me so much food, its like he wants to get me fat… and also it is difficult fornme to deny it because im a fat bitch

i feel so sad i left myself look like this ):

feel like crying but im not sure if i can

Gonna get back to this

le gusto yo o el sexo que le doy?

le gusto yo o le gusta que tengo los features q le gustan en una mujer (pelirroja, tatuada, blanca) ?

me quiere cerca porque lo puedo ayudar con estudio/apuntes/trabajos?

le gusto yo o las cosas que recibe de mi?lol q amsieda